"I hope you will go out and let stories happen to you, and that
you will work them, water them with your blood and tears and
your laughter till they bloom, till you yourself burst into bloom."
- Clarissa Pinkola Estés
This writing thing, I love it. But I have strange
conceptions about it. I think that I can write only when I have something juicy
going on, like a moment when I began to really see my child, or moments when I overcame a difficult phase in my life.
I absolutely shut down shop when I
am wading through difficult waters...when it seems like the difficult phase I'm
going through will take a long time to pass. I also can't write when I am
feeling like I have nothing to offer to others who read or to myself. When I am mindlessly dragging myself through life.
I love conceiving an idea, letting it grow in my
mind and heart, i love playing with words and i love how musical sentences can
be when you weave them that way.I love how words
transform and give meaning to my experience. I also love how they open my heart
out and make me more grateful, kinder, calmer, and whole. But sometimes this
very thing is such an effort.
I love playing with notions of mindfulness,
love, compassion, hate, jealousy, desire , anger, freedom, independence,
interdependence and so forth and how they play out in my life and that of
others . But I can play with these notions only when I am feeling somewhat
accepting of myself and my present moment.
When I am angry and overwhelmed, I am
a mess and cannot stitch two words together. When I am sad or longing for someone I am poetic, deep
even. When I am happy I am busy celebrating it, not writing.
Nevertheless, I don't think I have ever written like this though,
every single day for the last 8 days (not on my blog at least). And I am realizing writing like
everything else is practice. A daily practice of just returning to the now, of returning to myself, of bearing witness to my life and experiences, again and again.
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"Writer Girl: 42 Days of Exercises to Deepen Your Faith in Your Ability and Your Purpose for Writing" by Robin Norgren is a wonderful book to begin to trust in my ability to write and to uncover my purpose for writing. I am going to do this. Yes, For 42 days.
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